I laughed \'til I cried cried, cried with no one to hold me and calm me My anger burned a hole in my soul My sadness the sound of my tears My sobs rendered me helpless as I burrowed down to that deep place inside of me where raw emotions hide I cried for the hurt, the pain and the fear and a childhood lost I cried for dignity undone and innocence long forgotten I cried for the questioning silences and the doubt filled eyes I cried because I felt so forsaken the loneliness nesting deep in my heart I cried so loud yet I was not heard The kind of crying that makes others uncomfortable because the pain is all too obvious yet crying seemed a woefully inadequate way to voice such powerful emotions With only bloodshot eyes and a tear stained face to show that moments before my body racked with tremors I faced the world again