Is This Desire?

Joy was her name
A life un-wed
Thirty years old
Never danced a step
She would have left these red hills far behind if not for her condition
'would have left these red hills long ago if not for my condition'
Pitiful joy
She looked away
Into a hollow sky
Came face to face
With her own innocence surrounding her until it never was a question
Innocence so suffocating, now she cannot move, no question
No hope for joy
No hope or faith
She wanted to go blind
Wanted hope to stay
'i've been believing in nothing since i was born, it never was a question.'

Catherine de barra, you've murdered my thinking
I gave you my heart, you left the thing stinking
I'd break from your spell if it weren't for my drinking
And the wind bites more bitter with each light of morning.
I envy the road, the ground you tread under,
I envy the wind, your hair riding over,
I envy the pillow your head rests and slumbers,
I envy to murderous envy your lover
'til the light shines on me
I damn to hell every second you breath
I envy
Oh my catherine
For your eyes smiling
And your mouth singing
With time i'd have won you
With wile i'd have won you
For your mouth singing

Catherine liked high places
High up on the hills
A place for making noises
Noises like the whales
Here she built a chapel with
Her image on the wall
A place where she could rest and
A place where she could wash
And listen to the wind blow
She dreamt of children's voices
And torture on the wheel
Patron-saint of nothing
A woman of the hills
She once was a lady
Of pleasure, and high-born
A lady of the city
But now she sits and moans
And listens to the wind blow
I see her in her chapel
High up on a hill
She must be so lonely
Oh mother, can't we give
A husband to our catherine?
A handsome one, a dear
A rich one for the lady
Someone to listen with

Joseph walked on and on
The sunset went down and down
Coldness cooled their desire
And dawn said, 'let's build a fire'
The sun dressed the trees in green
And joe said, 'i feel like a king'
And dawn's neck and her feet were bare
Sweetness in her golden hair
Said, 'i

Did you see her walking?
Did she come around here, sir?
Black hair, brown eyes
My beautiful leah
She was always so needing
Said, "i have no-one"
Even as i held her
She went out looking for someone
She only had nightmares,
And her sadness never lifted
And slowly over the years
Her lovely face twisted
Did she come around here, sir?
I swear you would remember
Black hair, brown eyes
Late september
October
November
December
It never leaves my mind
The last words she said
"if i don't find it this time,
Then i'm better off dead".

In came the girl withe the sad eyes and
Asked him over again
"was i too weak? was i a child?" and
"can't we leave here and start again?

Said "i don't mind if you take me down" and
"i don't ming if you brak it all", but
"how much more can you take from me?"
"how much more can you take from me?"

"i'd like to take you inside my head"
"i'd like to take you inside of me"
"you came from heaven", is all he said,
"you came from heaven and you came here to me,
And i love you..."

He drove it fast to make the night
And looked at his angel, where she lay
Resting her head, and closed her eyes
Outside the heat and the summer fades
Deep in the sky, a storm he'd seen
Deep in the sky, a storm he'd seen
"there ain't nothing, no girl so sweet"
"took her from heaven and gave her to me