Fragile

Staring at the sea
Will she come?
Is there hope for me
After all is said and done
Anything at any price
All of this for you
All the spoils of a wasted life
All of this for you
All the world has closed her eyes
Tired faith all worn and thin
For all we could have done
And all that could have been

Ocean pulls me close
And whispers in my ear
The destiny i've chose
All becoming clear
The currents have their say
The time is drawing near
Washes me away
Makes me disappear

I descend from grace
In arms of underflow
I will take my place
In the great below

I can still feel you
Even so far away

I woke up today
To find myself in the other place
With a trail of my footprints
From where i ran away
It seems everything i've heard
Just might be true
And you know me
(well you think you do)
Sometimes, i have everything-
Yet i wish i felt something

Do you know how far this has gone?
Just how damaged have i become?
When i think i can overcome
It runs even deeper

In in a dream i'm a different me
With a perfect you
We fit perfectly
And for once in my life i feel complete-
And i still want to ruin it
Afraid to look
As clear as day
This plan has long been underway

I hear them call
I cannot stay
The voice inviting me away

Do you know how far this has gone?
Just how damaged have i become?
When i think i can overcome
It runs even deeper
Everything that matters is gone
All the hands of hope have withdrawn
Could you try to help me hang on?
It runs...

I'm straight
I won't crack
On my way
And i can't turn back
I'm okay
I'm on track
On my way
And i can't turn back
I stayed
On this track
Gone too far
And i can't come back
I stayed
On this track
Lost my way
Can't come back

This is how
It begins
Push it away but it all comes back again
All the flesh
All the sin
There was a time when it used to mean just about everything

Just like now

Breathe, echoing the sound
Time starts slowing down
Sink until i drown
(please) i don't ever want to make it stop

And it keeps repeating
Will you please complete me?

Never be enough
To fill me up

Watch the white
Turn to red
It fills up the hole but it grows somewhere else instead
All my life
Yeah yeah yeah yeah, but it just left me dead
(well guess what?)
The world is over and i realize it was all in my head

Now everything is clear
I erase the fear
I can disappear
(please) i don't ever want to make it stop

You can never leave me
Will you please complete me

Never be enough
To fill me up

All i've undergone
I will keep on

Underneath it all
We feel so small
The heavens fall
But still we crawl

All i've undergone
I will keep on

Did you happen to catch
Or did it happen so fast
What you thought would always last
Has passed you by
Is everything speeding up
Or am i slowing down
Just spinning around
And i don't know why
All the pieces don't fit
Thought i really didn't give a shit
I never wanted to be like you
But for all i aspire
I really am a liar
And i'm running out of things i can do

I'd like to stay
But every day
Everything pushes me further away
If you could show
Help me to know
How it's supposed to be
Where did it go?

Pleading and
Needing and
Bleeding and
Breeding and
Feeding
Exceeding
Where is everybody?
Trying and
Lying
Defying
Denying
Crying and
Dying
Where is everybody?

Well okay, enough
You've had your fun
But come on there has got to be someone
That hasn't yet become
So numb
And succumb
And
God damn i am so tired of pretending
Of wishing i was ending
When all i'm really doing is trying to hide
And keep it inside
And fill it with lies
Open my eyes?
Maybe i wish i could try

Tried to save myself but myself keeps slipping away

Talking to myself all the way to the station
Pictures in my head of the final destination
All lined up
(all the ones that aren't allowed to stay)
Tried to save myself but myself keeps slipping away

Tried to save a place from the cuts and the scratches
Tried to overcome the complications and the catches
Nothing ever grows and the sun doesn't shine all day
Tried to save myself but myself keeps slipping away

Tried to save myself but myself keeps slipping away

All i do
I can still feel you

Numb all through
I can still feel you
Hear your call
Underneath it all
Kill my brain
Yet you still remain
Crucified
After all i've died
After all i've tried
You are still inside

All i do
I can still feel you

You remain
I am stained

I'd listen to the words he'd say
But in his voice i heard decay
The plastic face forced to portray
All the insides left cold and gray
There is a place that still remains
It eats the fear it eats the pain
The sweetest price he'll have to pay
The day the whole world went away

So impressed with all you do
Tried so hard to be like you
Flew too high and burnt the wing
Lost my faith in everything

Lick around divine debris
Taste the wealth of hate in me
Shedding skin succumb defeat
This machine is obsolete

Made the choice to go away
Drink the fountain of decay
Tear a hole exquisite red
Fuck the rest and stab it dead

Broken bruised forgotten sore
Too fucked up to care anymore
Poisoned to my rotten core
Too fucked up to care anymore

In the back off the side far away is a place where i hide where i
Stay tried to stay tried to ask i needed to all alone by myself where were you?
How could i ever think it's funny how everything that swore it wouldn't change is differnet now just like you
Would always say we'll make it through then my head fell apart
And where were you?
How could i ever think it's funny how everything you swore would never change is different now like you said you and me make it through
Didn't quite fall apart
Where the fuck where you?

Just a reflection
Just a glimpse
Just a little reminder
Of all the what abouts
And all the might have
Could have beens
Another day
Some other way
But not another reason to continue
And now you're one of us
The wretched

The hopes and prays
The better days
The far aways
Forget it

It didn't turn out the way you wanted it to, did it

Now you know
This is what it feels like
Now you know
This is what it feels like

The clouds will part and the sky cracks open
And god himself will reach his fucking arm through
Just to push you down
Just to hold you down
Stuck in this hole with the shit and the piss
And it's hard to believe it could come down to this
Back at the beginning
Sinking
Spinning
And in the end
We still pretend
The time we spend
Not knowing when
You're finally free
And you could be

But it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to
It didn't turn out quite the way you wanted it

Now you know
This is what it feels like

You can try to stop it but it keeps on coming
You can try to stop it but