Tigerlily

Doctors have come
From distant cities
Just to see me
Stand over my bed
Disbelieving what they're seeing

They say i must be one of the wonders
Of god's own creation
And as far as the can see they can offer
No explanation

Newspapers ask
Intimate questions
What confessions
They reach into my head
To steal the glory
Of my story

They say i must be one of the wonders
Of god's own creation
And as far as the can see they can offer
No explanation

I believe
Fate smiled and destiny
Laughed as she came to my cradle
"know this child will be able"
Laughed as my body she lifted
"know this child will be gifted
With love, with patience
And with faith
She'll make her way"

People see me
I'm a challenge
To your balance
I'm over your heads
How i confound you
And astound you
To know i must be one of the wonders
Of god's own creation
And as far as you can see you can offer me
No explanation

I believe
Fate smiled and destiny
Laughed as she came to my cradle
"know this child will be able"
Laughed as she came to my mother
"know this child will not suffer"
Laughed as my body she lifted
"know this child will be gifted
With love, with patience
And with faith
She'll make her way"

Young and strong hollywood son
In the early morning light
This star fell down
On sunset boulevard

Young and strong beautiful one
We embraced so close
Is gone
Was torn away

Let the youth of america mourn
Include him in their prayers
Let his image linger on
Repeat it everywhere

With candles, with flowers
He was one of ours
One of ours

Why don't you let him be?
He's gone
We know
Give his mother and his father peace
Your vulture's candor
Your casual slander
You murder his memory
He's gone
We know
It's nothing but a tragedy

Lay to rest your soul and body
Lay beside your name
Lay to rest your rage
Your hunger and amazing grace

With candles, with flowers
You were one of ours
One of ours

I saw cameras expose your life
I heard rumors explode with lies
I saw children in tears
Cry and crowd around the sight
Of where you had collapsed that day
Where your last breath and word
Had been sighed
Where your heart had burst
Where you had died

I saw how they were lost in grieving
All half believing you were gone
The loss and pain of it
Crime and shame of it
You were gone
It was such a nightmare raving,
"how could we save him from himself?"

I may know the word
But not say it
I may know the truth
But not face it
I may hear a sound
A whisper sacred and profound
But turn my head
Indifferent

I may know the word
But not say it
I may love the fruit
But not taste it
I may know the way
To comfort and to soothe
A worried face
But fold my hands
Indifferent

If i'm on my knees
I'm begging now
If i'm on my knees
Groping in the dark
I'd be paying for deliverance
From the night into day

But it's all grey here
It's all grey to me

I may know the word
But not say it
This may be the time
But i might waste it
This may be the hour
Something move me
Someone prove me wrong
Before the night comes
With indifference

If i'm on my knees
I'm begging now
If i'm on my knees
Groping in the dark
I'd be praying for deliverance
From the night into the day

But it's all grey here
But it's all grey to me

I recognize the walls inside me
I recognize them all
I've paced between them
Chasing demons down
Until they fall
In fitful sleep
Enough to keep their strength
Enough to crawl
Into my head
With tangled threads
They riddle me to solve

Again and again and again

If i ever write this letter
The pages i could write
But i don't know where to send it
You have vanished
Heaven knows where you live
Heaven only knows

If i ever write this letter
Bitter words it would contain
Just and unrequited lover
Wishing she had never
Spoken your name
Had never known your name

But if i ever write this letter
The truth it would reveal
Knowing you brought me pleasure
How i'll often treasure
Moments that we knew
The precious, the few

Go west
Paradise is there
You'll have all that you can eat
Of milk and honey over there

You'll be the brightest star
The world has ever seen
Sun-baked slender heroine
Of film and magazine

Go west
Paradise is there
You'll have all that you can eat
Of milk and honey over there

You'll be the brightest light
The world has ever seen
The dizzy height of a jet-set life
You could never dream

Your pale blue eyes
Strawberry hair
Lips so sweet
Skin so fair

Your future bright
Beyond compare
It's rags to riches
Over there

San andreas fault
Moved it's fingers
Through the ground
Earth divided
Plates collided
Such an awful sound

San andreas fault
Moved its fingers
Through the ground
Terra cotta shattered
And walls came
Tumbling down

O promised land
O wicked ground
Build a dream
Tear it down

O promised land
What a wicked ground
Build a dream
Watch it fall down

How did i love you?
There was no measuring
Far above this dirty world
Far above everything
In your tower over it
You were clean

So warm and insightful
Were you in my eyes
I was sure the rightful
Guardian of my life
Damn you betrayer
How you lied

But for seven years
You were loved
I laid golden orchid crowns
Around your feet

For seven years
I bowed down
To touch the ground
So wholly your devotee

You were
All i could see

I've got my sight now
I see everything you hid
So don't you try to right now
All the wrong you did
I might forget you
But never forgive

But for seven years
You were loved
I laid golden orchid crowns
Around your feet

For seven years
I bowed down
To touch the ground
So wholly your devotee

For seven years
You were so revered
I made offerings of
Anything and everything i had

You were
All i could see