Volume 8: The Threat Is Real

Why do i explain myself when everyone's
An idiot but me
I think some people need
Killing for stupidity and i'll be born again
Kicking and screaming
And dragged back into a life
Like ten pounds in a nine pound bag
Still i come back to give you something
That you never had.
Idiot rules
I never fight i only win
And i don't make em
I never bend i only break them
Finish my smoke, down my drink, wipe my mouth
And i just walk away
What's the chance of finding something
Real and make it last
For that i'd carry all my bags and leave
Them in the past
Because i spend my life fixing mistakes
That left me scarred
And when i stand and meet my maker
I'll be born again hard

Don't judge me by my sins

Looming large like a favorite son
One more time comes my obsession
Like a mountain stream that ends in mud
I'm wading in waiting for the flood, sinking
You did
Left me hating, contemplating
Left me waning, slowly draining
Feet of clay that are stuck to the floor
And with vanity you want more
I'm drinking strength for comic relief
While i'm growing super weak in the knees
You asked me can i deliver
Like a monster crossing the hudson river, stomping
Big fat kill
Carrying the weight of the world
In my arms
I'm biting my tongue so much it hurts
But at the same time i'm at a loss for words
The things i've seen should've left me blind
So it makes me happy that i'm losing my mind, laughing
You asked me can i deliver
Like a monster crossing the hudson river
The things i've seen should've left me blind
So it makes me happy that i'm losing my mind

All these years i've been the hard man
All these years it's been so hard man
To live my life for someone else
In fear of being honest with myself
I perpetrated a lie
Juggling my life with one hand tied behind my back
Trying to find, and it had always been mine
I'm in, i'm out
I'm breaking though the darkness
And it knocked me over
Into the light of an older soul, and i'll never die
Cause everything i am is in your eyes
Angels in my heart, devils in my eyes
I'll live forever in your eyes
Crucify my inhibitions
The first born son he died for my sins
Nothing to worry about
And all these years i was the hard man
I always knew i'd find myself and prove
Because you told me the truth, it's all i wanted from you
My catharic dream, a primal scream
Shedding my skin
Somewhere between light and dark
I balance what i am
And i remember everything we said we'd ding a way
Laugh and cry, love and hate
Ain't no weak link this bond won't break
I put it out there it comes back

I have something i can reveal
I get off on laughing
It's like the biggest orgasm
If you like i'll share it with you
When you give up yourself, you do it peacefully
Then you feel no plight and you think you're free
Give up yourself
There goes your chivalry
From on top of the world, i'll throw you down a rope
Hog tied to this life, i'm strapped up tight
And i won't be no slave
I can't wait to get you back
I need you back in my clutches
If it takes a thousand punches
By the end you'll be in stitches
Climb up if the noose ain't tied
It won't disturb you, it's here to serve you
Unlock the doubt, you'll find it's out, your rosetta stone
Or you'll cut the line, and stifle time
Slash your wrist and kiss and kiss your crippled bones

Now you see me now you don't
Go before i am the goat
You get away with murder, kill me when you're through
Do i have to give up me, to be loved by you
From the smallest taste i use
From the smallest taste i lose
Won't you crush on me, crush on
Pile your dead on top of me
Tape my eyes so i can't see
I've been waiting for today
I can't touch you when you're far away
Nothing makes me feel this way
Except hate but that fades away

I have always been an experiment in terror
At least i can only kill you once
Standing aloof when i made up my mind
Reaching, why it's better to be blunt
Your walking point through my minefield
You gotta get out
Your on point in my minefield
Forever waiting for a road map
Speak, say something, answer me
I left you in a killing box
Sketchy's not a name you can pin on my
I'll start a revolt with my honesty
A piece of you burns every time you like
So lets start a war, just to see how many die

inside out

I thought i knew what provacation was
I've eaten from the insane root that imprisons reason
It's in my stomach like fire, like cancer,like knife i've been gunshot
I gotta let it go, yeah
It's in my stomach like fire
It's in my stomach like cancer
It's in my stomach like a knife, i've been gunshot
Goddamn no where place to be
Dying deep inside of me
Always standing on the inside looking out
Can't break a hear so strong with pride
It's more than just being alive
I broke the rule with you i'm out

My only antidote to mental suffering is physical pain
It's in my stomach like fire, like cancer,like knife i've been gunshot
I gotta let it go, yeah
It's in my stomach like fire
It's in my stomach like cancer
It's in my stomach like a knife, i've been gunshot
Goddamn no where place to be
I gotta let it go, yeah
Goddamn no where place to be
Dying deep inside of me
Always standing on the inside looking out
Can't break a hear so strong with pride
It's more than just being alive
I broke the rule with you i'm out