Afraid Of Sunlight

(music: marillion lyrics: steve hogarth & john helmer)

If you were a baby i would take you and run
I could hide you in the folds of my heart
There's a truth in the madness that i can't get beyond
And a fever that won't leave me alone

I don't want my heart
Don't want my head
Don't want my friends
Don't want my bed

I can't live with myself
I can't live with myself
Can't take no help
I try to want you
But i can't get beyond you

I will stare from the window
At the shapes in the rain
As the space between us drives me insane

I can't live with myself
I can't live with myself
Can't take no help
I want no one else

If i was a child
I would reuse to leave
I would sit down on the street
Kick my legs and scream

I'm not much of a man but i know how i am
I know this won't fade away
I will pretend and be strong
But i wonder where i belong

And the feeling comes in waves
A hole in my body.. aching

Like a heart dying
A soul crying
Exhausted and insecure
Took all you have and i still want more
And i reach out to hold you,
But all i do is hurt you,
Hurt you

I can't live with myself
I can't live with myself
Can't take no help
I try to want to
But i can't get beyond you

If i was a child
I would take you and run

And i say i don't know...
But i know
And i say i'll go, but i don't let go

You just spent the whole day
Driving away

(music: marillion lyrics: steve hogarth & john helmer)

Saw you walking on your velvet lawn
Is it lonely on the moon?
You took a dive and swallowed all you could
Did you drink too much too soon?
Nothing left for you to fight about
And no-one wants to see you try
The nearest neighbours are a mile away
Does the ocean hear you cry?

Punching at the sky
They say the king is losin' his grip again
They said you're bullet proof, they said you feel no pain
It seems the hero is misunderstood again

Is it love or is it surgery
Makes he seem so ill at ease
As she's begging you to please calm down
In her silk armani on her knees
Did you carry out those threats i heard
Or were you only playing macho?
And the stains on her versace scarf
Were they really just gazpacho?

They say the king is watching his back again
They say the king is losing his grip again
Raging like a bull to an empty ring
D'you think they will forgive a hero anything?

Now the ring is just a band of gold
And your wife needs police protection
While you're sparring with the journalists
You're trying to win back her affection
Is this what it means to be a man boxing up all your emotion
So now she's gone and you're alone at last
You can tell it to the ocean

They say the king is losing his grip again
They say the king is countin' his numbered days
You never lost a fight in your whole life
You never had no trouble sleepin' through the night
The bottle and the doctor get you through the day
The boys who run the house'll make it all ok
You think they will forgive a hero anything
Maybe hollywood... but maybe then again...

Now the ring is just a band of gold...
Drive the road...

(music: marillion lyrics: steve hogarth & john helmer)

Well she tied me to the headboard with a surf leach
And her wet hair hugged her body like a long-lost friend
And i really tried my best to get across to her
But nothing she would say could be defended

Well her birthday suit it was her only present
When i looked into her eyes - no history
And i told her eating people wasn't pleasant
But she laughed a snake eye laugh and walked away from me

I watched her as she walked across the coals
I watched her as she walked across the coals

She was singing: i was born in nineteen sixty weird
And i am your nightmare surfer babe
Mr. wilson where's your sandbox and your beard
Are you still looking for the perfect microwave

So i did my best to try and get across her
I said: "one day every pebble hits the beach"
And i kissed her face and held her like a long-lost friend
But she was too far out there to be reached

She was singing: i was born in nineteen sixty weird
I'm your nightmare surfer babe
Mr. wilson where's your sandbox and your beard
Are you still looking for that perfect microwave?

And the sun came up over the mountain
And the waves rolled in across the bay
And the fabulous brightly coloured birds flew up out of the forest
And she said "well we're all heaven's beautiful children livin' together in paradise
Lie down my dear... you're going to enjoy this"

She looked like she'd had sex
With a tyrranosaurus rex

She was singing: i was born in nineteen sixty weird
I'm your nightmare surfer babe
Mr. wilson where's your sandbox and your beard
Are you still looking for that perfect microwave?

And i watched her as she walked across the coals
And i watched her as she walked across the coals

(music: marillion lyrics: steve hogarth & john helmer)

Everybody knows that we live in a world where they give bad names to beautiful things
Everybody knows that we live in a world where we don't give beautiful things a second glance
Heaven only knows that we live in a world where what we call beautiful is just something on sale

And the leaves turn from red to brown
To be trodden down
To be trodden down
And the leaves turn from red to brown
Fall to the ground
Fall to the ground

We don't have to live in a world where we give bad names to beautiful things
We should live in a beautiful world
We should give beautiful a second glance

And the leaves fall from red to brown
To be trodden down
Trodden down
And the leaves turn green to red to brown
Fall to the ground
And get kicked around

You strong enough to be..
Have you the courage to be..
Have you the faith to be..
Honest enough to say..
Don't have to be the same..
Don't have to be this way
C'mon and sign your name
You wild enough to remain beautiful?
Beautiful

All the leaves turn from red to brown
To be trodden down
Trodden down
And we fall green to red to brown
Fall to the ground
To be kicked around

You strong enough to be..
Why don't you stand up and say
Give yourself a break
They laugh at you anyway
So why don't you stand up and be
Beautiful.

(music: marillion lyrics: steve hogarth & john helmer)

Drive the road to your surrender
Time comes around... out of my hands
Small boats on the beach at the dead of night
Come and go before first light
Leave me running in the wheel
King of the world
How do you feel?
What is there to feel?

So how do we now come to be
Afraid of sunlight?
Tell me girl why you and me
Scared of sunlight?

Been in pain for so long
I can't even say what hurts anymore
I will leave you alone
I will deny
I will leave you to bleed
I will leave you with your life

So how do we now come to be
Afraid of sunlight?
Tell me girl why are you and me
Scared of sunlight?

All your spirit rack abuses
Come to haunt you back by day
All your byzantine excuses
Given time, given you away
Don't be surprised when daylight comes
To find that memory prick your thumbs
You'll tell them where to run to hide
I'm already dead
It's a matter of time

So how do we now come to be
Afraid of sunlight
How do we now come to be
Afraid of sunlight
So how do we now come to be
Afraid of sunlight
How do we now come to be
Afraid of sunlight

Dayglo jesus on the dash
Chalk marks on the road ahead
Friendly fire in hostile waters
Keep the faith
Don't lose your head
So how do we now come to be?....