Violent Silence

Sometimes i feel high
Sometimes i feel so unbelievably down
It's nothing to do with pleasure or pain
No it works its way up
From the pit of my groin
Sometimes i feel high
Something shoots-out with an aching and burning
Throws me to the wall
High
Fly
Over you fall

What's gone wrong with my heart
It seems to beat the wings of evil
Screaming it's loudest when i want to keep quiet
It's shouting out loud
Here is me
Here i am
Take me now
And sometimes it doesn't beat a sound

Sometimes when it rains
I have the urge to break the windows
I put my wrist out to the air
Live long live

I would do almost anything
To rid myself of you forever
I would succumb
To thoughts that verge on maim and murder

No-one can hold me
No-one ever holds me down
Light my lantern
My free heart
Buried six feet underground (x2)
I could despise you
It only rots of sickly pity
Stagnates for who ?
For me or for you ?

I could kill myself
I really have not much to give you
Parchment transparent
You can see right through (x2)

Blood and tongue damn swollen
My mouth makes promises never kept
If only i'd kill you
Sent you to heaven while you slept
While you slept (x5)

But our love won't die
Our love won't ever die
It'll never die
Never (x3)
It'll ever ever die

You're running for the kitchen drawer to find a knife to end me
'cause if i'm not yours anymore then no-one else shall have me
The mirror broke seven years to go of misery and corrosion
We can watch our kind of love
We gotta a dangerous obsession
And there was a look that froze your eyes
Of irrational destruction
I only saw you through a selfish
Smokescreen of corruption
I fell upon you, threw you down
And out like other flotsam

Body unknown (x3)

Put your photo in my book of bodies
Like a killer counts the notches
Smile about you sometimes
When drawing of the catches
A gallery from the photo-booth
A hundred frozen faces
Body or no, all overthrown
All weary, worn out, wasted

Body unknown (x3)

I clasp your wrist, the edge cuts
Into the little finger
Its not the pain of skin wound
Its the mentalness that lingers
And your hair was wet, torrential tears
I always hear you crying
And i smelled you head, damp like a dog
That smell of damp dogs dying

Body unknown (x3)

You cry
Body unknown
You cry
Body unknown

I was dragging your face around the floor
Somebody's boot heel in your mouth
Scars of cigarettes buds on your tongue
These are the things you loved me for

Found a young boy down by the dockside
Lying half-in
Half-out of the water
Had a leather facing nailed to his head
Left his little soul away
Back in that bed
Jesus loves all little children (x2)

I broke a large bottle on the edge of your cranium
You stared there
Smiling at eyes of oblivion
I sent you down to spending your damn deliria
When you began screaming
I spat in your mouth
I kissed you so tenderly
Thinking about
Yes, these are the things you loved me for
These are the things you loved me for

But god will never see you in the bowels of the building
For the ever righteous angel will know what your feeling
He'll find you
Seek you nevertheless
Running petroleum all over your legs
The hymn that he sing won't be forgiveness
The hymn that he sing won't be of love
Angels are immune to love and desire
You reach down slowly to the gut of the fire
The smell of the sin (x3)
The smell of the glory
These are the things you loved me for (x5)