Music Bank

Move up from the table
Stick her arm let her go
Dropped dime on me last time
By morning his blood turned bold
Runnin from the law since monday
'cause suzy went down on time
Got enough to last till sunday
So i'm burning on down that line
Killing yourself
Killing yourself
Killing yourself
K-k-k-killing yourself
Move up from the table
Fat man going down
Some run from the big gun
Some just run from the sound
Runnin from the law since monday
'cause suzy went down on time
Got enough to last till sunday
So i'm burning on down that line
Suzy was a bad child
Always on the wrong side
Ah, she was no good
She was bad, bad, bad with the bad cats
Always punching the needle in her arm
Ah, but when she's good, she's so damn good
Killing yourself
Killing yourself
Killing yourself
K-k-k-killing yourself
You're just killing yourself

Ain't found a way to kill me yet
Eyes burn with stinging sweat
Seems every path leads me to nowhere
Wife and kids household pet
Army green was no safe bet
The bullets scream to me from somewhere

Here they come to snuff the rooster
Yeah here come the rooster, yeah
You know he ain't gonna die
No, no, no, ya know he ain't gonna die

Walkin' tall machine gun man
They spit on me in my home land
Gloria sent me pictures of my boy
Got my pills 'gainst mosquito death
My buddy's breathin' his dyin' breath
Oh god please won't you help me make it through

Here they come to snuff the rooster
Yeah here come the rooster, yeah
You know he ain't gonna die
No, no, no ya know he ain't gonna die

Is she ready to know my frustration?
What she slippin' inside, slow castration
I'm a riddle so strong, you can't break me
Did she come here to try, try to take me

Did she call my name?
I think it's gonna rain
When i die

Was it something i said, held against me?
Ain't no life on the run, slowly climbing
Caught in ice so she stares, stares at nothing
I can help her but won't, now she hates me

She won't let me hide
She don't want me to cry

Will she keep on the ground, trying to ground me
Slowly forgive my lie, lying to save me
Could she love me again, or will she hate me
Prob'ly not, i know why, can't explain me

Did she call my name?
I think it's gonna rain
When i die

What the hell am i?
Thousand eyes, a fly
Lucky then i'd be
In one day deceased

Sickman, sickman, sickman

I can feel the wheel, but i can't steer
When my thoughts become my biggest fear

Ah, what's the difference, i'll die
In this sick world of mine

What the hell am i?
Leper from inside
Inside wall of peace
Dirty and diseased

Sickman, sickman, sickman, sickman

I can see the end is getting near
I won't rest until my head is clear

Ah, what's the difference, i'll die
In this sick world of mine

Can you see the end?
Choke on me my friend
Must to drown these thoughts
Purity over rot

(spoken in backround)
"yeah, though i walk through the valley of rape and despair
With head high and eyes alert
I tread on a plane of many
We who are of good nature and intention,
But cannot touch on the dark
Recesses of memory
And pain learned, so come walk
With me, feel the pain,
And release it..."
What the hell am i?
Worn eroded pride
Saddened 10 miles wide
I'm gonna let it slide

Sickman, sickman, sickman, sickman

I can feel the wheel, but i can't steer
When my thoughts become my biggest fear
Ah, what's the difference, i'll die
In this sick world of mine
Ahh, etc., etc.

How the mind does shout for rest
When the bodies shaken, yeah
Oh the tightness in my chest
Still your leaves i'm raking

Lord is this a test
Was it fun creating, yeah?
My god's a little sick
And he wants me crazy


Who
Are you
Who can say
It's ok to live through me?

Live to be
Part of me
You're a wrinkled magazine
Yeah

Was it something that i said?
Was it how they're breaking, yeah
I'm so selfish, paying your rent
While your blood i'm taking

You
Spend me
Like a tree
Dirty dollar bills for leaves
Dark in a sea
Of my seeds
And the tears on which you feed

You feed

The body is a temple
A dormant alter
To where infantile men lie around
Itching and nibbling
For a small piece of sanity
Of which you can not give

Shit!

Individuality
Buying pennies with my soul
And a little heaven spent
While the hell i'm taking

Thieves
Parasites
Hide from life
You know they'll remember me

They are abhored
In self-worth
All that matters much to me

There's no time to give at all
I cause you grief and blow my hatred
Further in your mind
You reach, i run, you fall
On skinned knees you crawl

I want to set you free, recognize my disease
Love, sex, pain, confusion, suffering
You're there crying, i feel not a thing
Drilling my way deeper in your head
Sinking, draining, drowning, bleeding, dead

So you sit and think of love
I wait, hate all the more, i fall
On skinned knees i crawl

I want to set you free, recognize my disease
Love, sex, pain, confusion, suffering
You're there crying, i feel not a thing
Drilling my way deeper in your head
Sinking, draining, drowning, bleeding, dead

Now there's time to give it all
I put my fears behind again
On skinned knees we'll crawl

I want to set you free, recognize my disease
Love, sex, pain, confusion, suffering
You're there crying, i feel not a thing
Drilling my way deeper in your head
Sinking, draining, drowning, bleeding, dead
Love, sex, pain, confusion, suffering

sad suffering
I knew you when
Fairwell thee friend of mine
I try not to think
I merely blink
Hope to wish away the lies...
I...
Can you protect
Me when i'm wrecked
I'll pretend you're still alive
I choose the day
One death and grey,
Thick fog, i hide and smile
Clear all your sins
Get born again
Just repeat a couple lies
Lies... yeah
Sad suffering.....
Get born again....

I tried to love you i thought i could
I tried to own you i thought i would
I want to peel the skin from your face
Before the real you lays to waste

You told me i'm the only one
Sweet little angel you should have run
Lying, crying, dying to leave
Innocence creates my hell

Cheating myself still you know more
It would be so easy with a whore
Try to understand me little girl
My twisted passion to be your world

Lost inside my sick head
I live for you but i'm not alive
Take my hand before i kill
I still love you, but, i still burn

Yeah, love, hate, love (3x)
Oooh, love, hate, love
Yeah, love, hate, love

Care not for the men who wonder
Straw that broke your back, you're under
Cast all them aside who care
Empty eyes and dead end stare

Don't you know that none are blind
To the lie, and you think i don't find what you hide?

What in god's name have you done?
Stick your arm for some real fun

For the horse you've grown much fonder
Than for me, that i don't ponder
As the hair of one who bit you
Smiling bite your own self, too

And i think that you're not blind
To the ones you left behind
I'll be here

What in god's name have you done?
Stick your arm for some real fun

So be yearning all your life
Twisting, turning like a knife

Now you know the reasons why
Can't get high, or you will die
Or you'll die

What in god's name have you done?
Stick your arm for some real fun
So your sickness weighs a ton
And god's name is smack for some

Don't need a gun
Pointed at me
No need to run
The killer is me
The killer is me

So the sun
Shines upon me
I'm havin' fun
The killer is me

Insane the mind
In the name of me
Can't find the time
To let things be

Insane the mind
In the name of me
Can't find the time
To let things be
Let things be

Oh yeah... can i start over
Oh yeah... can i start over
And get over it

So the sun
Shines upon me
I'm havin' fun
The killer is me
The killer is me
The killer is me

Oh yeah... can i start over
Oh yeah... can i start over
And get over it

Let things be

I broke you in the canyon
I drowned you in the lake
You a snake that i would trample
Only thing i'd not embrace

Oh, you couldn't dam that river
And maybe i don't give a damn anyway
So you couldn't dam that river
And it washed me so far away

I pushed and then you stumbled
I kicked you in the face
You stare at me so hollow
Got to keep that killin' pace

Oh, you couldn't dam that river
And maybe i don't give a damn anyway
So you couldn't dam that river
And it washed me so far away

I burned the place around you
I hit you with a rake
You piss upon my candle
So proving you're a fake

Oh, you couldn't dam that river
And maybe i don't give a damn anyway
So you couldn't dam that river
And it washed me so far away

The face before me flies
Laughs at me inside
Masks are made to hide the glow
Shining eyes
Distance 'tween us grows
Feeding lies

It's hard to start things over
You can feel the fire around us
All the time
Yeah

Something i should say
It takes you every day
What you give is not alive
Today
Your soul served on a plate
Throw it away

It's hard to start things over
You can feel the fire around us
All the time
Yeah

It's hard to start things over
Oh yeah
You can feel the fire around us
All the time
Yeah

It's hard to start things over
Oh yeah
You can feel the fire around us
All the time
Yeah

All the time

What the hell have i?
Little pride

Hey, let them do it again, yeah
Hey, you said you were my friend
Hey, turn me upside down, oh
Hey, feelin' so down
Hey, hey...hey...hey...

You made a fool of me again
Again

Hey, i know i made the same mistake, yeah
I, i won't do it again, no
Why, why you slap me in the face, oww
I, i didn't say it was ok, no
No, no...

You violate a part of me again
Again

Ah, ooo
Whoo whoo, yeah

Hey, you had time to think it out, yeah
Hey, your weak will won't help her heal her heart
Hey, i'll bet it really eats you up

Extending part of me again
Again

Ooo
Whoo whoo, yeah

Yeah, i want to travel south this year
Aaah, woah, woah
Won't prevent safe passage here

Why you act crazy
Not an act maybe
So close a lady
Shifty eyes shady

Yeah, hey yeah, tears that soak
A callous heart

Why you act frightened
I am enlightened
Your weakness builds me
So someday you'll see

I stay away

Why you act crazy
Not an act maybe
So close a lady
Shifty eyes shady

I stay away

What's gone wrong, i can't see straight
Been too long, so full of hate

What the fuck will it take
Drown myself in my wake
Another shaggy d.a.
Now a dog, shake my leg
Plastic man, paper face
Candy heart, what a waste
Gotta change, set a date
Eat my cake, lick my plate

Stare at me with empty eyes and
Point your words at me
Mirror on the wall will show you
What you're scared to see

I can see, yeah - (wish i couldn't see at all)
I can feel - (wish i couldn't feel at all)
Hate to see - (wish i couldn't see at all)
Hate to feel - (wish i couldn't feel at all)

So climb walls,
Thin my blood now
And i crawl, back to bed now

What the hell, gotta rest
Aching pain in my chest
Lucky me, now i'm set
Little bug for a pet
New orleans, gotta get
Pin cushion medicine
Used to be curious
Now the shit's sustenance

All this time i swore i'd never
Be like my old man
What the hey it's time to face
Exactly what i am

I can see, yeah - (wish i couldn't see at all)
I can feel - (wish i couldn't feel at all)
Hate to see - (wish i couldn't see at all)
Hate to feel - (wish i couldn't feel at all)

What the hell, gotta rest
Aching pain in my chest
Lucky me, now i'm set
Little bug for a pet
New orleans, gotta get
Pin cushion medicine
Used to be curious
Now the shit's sustenance

All this time i swore i'd never
Be like my old man
What the hey it's time to face
Exactly who i am

I can see, yeah - (wish i couldn't see at all)
I can feel - (wish i couldn't feel at all)
Hate to see - (wish i couldn't see at all)
Hate to feel - (wish i couldn't feel at all)

Inside always trying to get back inside
But it's so hard to penetrate pig-thick skin

I'm 'bout as low as i can get
I'd leave but i can't forget
Still i wonder why it ain't right, mmm it ain't right, oooh
Ain't right, mmm it ain't right, yeah

'bout as low as she can get
She'll leave me but she won't forget
And she wonders why she ain't right, she ain't right
Ain't right, she ain't right

Now we're as low as we can get
Can't leave and can't forget
We ain't right, we ain't right
Not right, we ain't right

(backround)well it's hard to believe that somebody tricked you
When you can see you were only high
It's all up to you so you gamble
Flat on your face and into the fire

Yeh, it goes away
All of this and more of nothing in my life
No color clay
Individuality not safe

As of now i bet you got me wrong
So unsure you run from something strong

I can't let go
Threadbare tapestry unwinding slow
Feel a tortured brain
Show your belly like you want me to

As of now i bet you got me wrong
So unsure you run from something strong

I haven't felt like this in so long
Wrong, in a sense too far gone from love
That don't last forever
Something's gotta turn out right

You sugar taste
Sweetness doesn't often touch my face
Stay if you please
You may not be here when i leave

As of now i bet you got me wrong
So unsure we reach for something strong

I haven't felt like this in so long
Wrong, in a sense too far gone from love
Strong, i haven't felt like this in so long
Wrong, in a sense too far gone from love
T hat don't last forever
Something's gotta turn out right

Turn around you say
'scuse the 'tude but i haven't eaten today
And my eyes are turning grey
What's your name?

I can't remember... i can't remember

Bring me down you try
Feel the pain and keep it all in till you die
Without eyes you cannot cry
Who's to blame?

I can't remember... i can't...

Remember identity, the visions in my mind from
Screamin' at me
And mama, mama, ooh...my angry brains of infancy

Knocked down but i have enough hate to breathe
Down your throat and steal your energy
You took everything but my will to be
Now the loss of your god won't make me bleed

I am alive

You say you don't like the way we look
Well fuck off
I ain't some dying dog that you can kick
So fuck off
It's so easy to fall into that hole
And you're the one who cast me in that role
If you loved me would you call me a social parasite
And who's the one to tell me whether it's wrong or right
You say you don't like the place i live
Well get out
There ain't no vacancy in my bed
So get out
It's so easy to fall into that hole
And you're the one who cast me in that role
If you loved me would you call me a social parasite
And who's the one to tell me whether it's wrong or right
If you loved me would you call me a social parasite
And who's the one to tell me whether it's wrong or right
(1, 2, 3, go...)
You say you don't like the way we look
Well fuck off
I ain't some dying dog that you can kick
So fuck off
It's so easy to fall into that hole
And you're the one who cast me in that role
If you loved me would you call me a social parasite
And who's the one to tell me whether it's wrong or right
If you loved me would you call me a social parasite
And who's the one to tell me whether it's wrong or right

i could climb until i reach where angels reside
Ask around to find out where the junkies applied
You just up and left me on this rock all alone
It's my fault for knowing now what i should have known

Ohhhh oh oh
My heart is tired of beating slow
Ohh ohh
It's been depleating since you died
Died
Since you died
You died

I could drop until i touch the sinister side
Visit all attractions flippin' back and aside
Still you leave me rotting on this rock all alone
It's my fault for knowing not what i should have known

Ohhhh oh oh
My heart is tired of beating slow
Ohh ohh
It's been depleating since you died
Died
Since you died
You died

Ohhh oh oh
My heart is tired of beating slow
Uhh ohh
It's been depleating since you died
Died
Since you died
You died

I could climb until i reach where angels reside
I could drop until i touch the sinister side

Ohhhh oh
My heart is tired of beating slow
Uhh ohh
It's been depleating since you died
Died
Since you died
You died
Died
You died
Died
You died

What does friend mean to you?
A word so wrongfully abused
Are you like me, confused
All included but you
Alone...

The sounds of silence often soothe
Shapes and colors shift with mood
Pupils widen and change their hue
Rapid brown avoid clear blue

Why's it have to be this way
Be this way

Flowers watched through wide brown eyes bloom
A child sings an unclaimed tune
Innocence spins cold cocoon
Grow to see the pain too soon

Why's it have to be this way
Be this way (5x)

"at 7 am on a tuesday, usual august ...
Next week i'll be 28...
I'm still young, it'll be me...
Off the wall i scrape... you...
I can't wake, i gotta wake...
To cause this wake, i gotta wake no more...
It causes wake, to drown this hate....
To never really stay, never will.....
You take your plate...
Put me through hell, live, live...
Direct your fate...
You say i can do it so well...
Your expiration date...
Fate, date, expiration date...
(this was the last time)
Hate...
And don't fuck with me again...
My own clean slate...
Don't fuck with me again...
Makes your eyes dilate...
Makes you shake...
Irate..."

I have never felt such frustration
Or lack of self control
I want you to kill me
And dig me under, i wanna live no more

One who doesn't care is one who shouldn't be
I've tried to hide myself from what is wrong for me
For me

I want to taste dirty, stinging pistol
In my mouth, on my tongue
I want you to scrape me from the walls
And go crazy like you've made me

One who doesn't care is one who shouldn't be
I've tried to hide myself from what is wrong for me
For me

You, you are so special
You have the talent to make me feel like dirt
And you, you use your talent to dig me under
And cover me with dirt

One who doesn't care is one who shouldn't be
I've tried to hide myself from what is wrong for me

Be what you wanna be
See what you came to see
Been what you wanna be
I don't like what i see

Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter will
Heaven beside you... hell within
And you think you have it still, heaven inside you

So there's problems in your life
That's fucked up, and i'm not blind
I'm just see through faded, super jaded
And out of my mind

Do what you wanna do
Go out and seek your truth
When i'm down and blue
Rather be me than you

Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter will
Heaven beside you... hell within
And you wish you had it still, heaven inside you

So there's problems in your life
That's fucked up, and i'm not blind
I'm just see through faded, super jaded
And out of my mind

Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter chill
Heaven beside you... hell within
Like the coldest winter will
Heaven beside you... hell within
And you know you have it still, heaven inside you

So there's problems in your life
That's fucked up, but you're not blind
You're just see through faded, overrated
And out of your mind