Blow

On the vermont transit bus
I leaned my arm into a little chink of sun,
Going somewhere older than i was,
Strapped into something tight, keeping me small.
I dug into you like rock climbing;
Too scared of coming down,
Too scared of going up,
Too scared of rockface.
I should've split my sides or spilled my guts or hit you or something,
But i was good, and your father's little pancakes
So round and perfect and me sitting up too straight,
Laughing in wrong places, kissing you,
Kissing up, kissing too soon.

When the cock crows
When the morning comes where will i go?
When the cock crows
When the love is gone where will i go?

And when you got me pregnant i stopped the party and
I stopped the typewriter and i stopped your dumb ball game in the red barn and i
Stopped your father and bled instead.
And i felt the lie - something sticky on the inside,
A bitter wind in my throat,
Stopping me wanting,
In my stomach, in my head and you said

Sugar sugar, you couldn't come come
Sugar sugar, without your mother
Sugar sugar, you couldn't taste it
Sugar sugar, in my throat.

When the cock crows
When the morning comes where will i go?
When the cock crows
When the love is gone where will i go?

Tonight my life is moving fast
I sit and watch the demons pass
A world i know but never seen
A fear that ripped the colour from me
I lit a candle for the dead
Saw the light around your head
Walked where angels never go
Saw them shining from below

It's easy when you're blessed
With money, love and sex
You're not like all the rest
It's easy when you're blessed

And did your mother lie to you?
You got god and death confused
I can't blame it on your soul
There was nowhere else it could go

It's easy when you're blessed
With money, love and sex
You're not like all the rest
It's easy when you're blessed
It's easy when you're blessed

You found me
Drifting,
Big motion like a bird,
Strangest song i ever heard.

Now, now that you're here
Stay with me light years,
Light years, light years.

No paper, no ring
In the trees where frogs sing.
I brought lilies for you,
Think of all the things were gonna do.

Now, now that you're here,
Stay with me light years.

I give you a thousand hours,
Making love in the tall sunflowers.
I give you a thousand feet
Down where the water's deep.

Sleepy storm, sleepy head,
Limb for limb on my bed.

Now, now that you're here,
Stay with me light years,
Light years, light years,
Light years, stay with me,
Stay with me, stay.

I put my hands where your wings should be,
I put my feet where the earth should be
And i can't see very far
And when you said that you were dead i hung on.

Something i feel,
You are an angel, or maybe you could've been
Something out here
You are an angel or maybe you could've been.

I've got this light hangs over me
I've got this fear cuts into me
And i can't see very far
And when you said that you were dead i hung on.

Something i feel
You are an angel, or maybe you could've been
Something out here
You are an angel or maybe you could've been.

See how they run
And nobody said you would go
See how they fall
And i can't see very far
And when you said you were dead i hung on.

Something i feel
You are an angel, or maybe you could've been
Something out here
You are an angel or maybe you could've been
See how they run
See how they run
All the same, all the same
Something out here
You are an angel

I'm talking to strangers
To see what i feel
Your face is changing now
And nothing seems real
These things i know
Are like a baby how they grow in me
I pull them out
Just like a baby for you to see them all

I'm talking to strangers
To see what i need
This love between us now
How it's twisting in me
I want to get it out
I want to feel the breathing
I want to really love
I want to know the meaning
I want to share all these things

These things i know
Are like a baby how they grow in me
I pull them out
Just like a baby for you to see them all