Whatever

I know there's a word for this
I know there's a word for the way i'm feeling
I know there's a word for this
I know it, and it's on the tip of my tongue
And it won't go any further.


I know there's a word for this
I know, 'cause it's in the dictionary
And when i find what it is
I'll write it down in case it comes up again
I'll be certain to avoid it.


So, take this down:
I just feel so beat
And i think it's time
To admit defeat
I thought i got mine
But that uphill climbing
Is never through.

I know there's a word for this
I know 'cause we've all at sometime said it
Like when we were little kids
We'd fight each other 'til someone would give in
And you'd make him tell you 'uncle'.


So, take this down:
I just feel so beat
And i think it's time
To admit defeat
I thought i got mine
But that uphill climbing
Is never through.

We made it down to new york
With everything intact
But as for getting back -
It was boo who made the joke,
They don't give you any hope
But they'll give you plenty of rope
And dan came in from jersey
He went to get the drums
And if buddy ever comes
We can get it off the ground
I hope someone's coming down
'else i can't see hanging around


Oh, experience is cheap
If that's the company you keep
And a chance is all that i need
And i've had it
I've had it

So we all just started playing
And then something strange occured -
Not a person stirred
Oh, it started out one way
But it turned out to be okay
And i felt that someone should say -


Oh, experience is cheap
If that's the company you keep
And before you know that it's free
You've had it

Like most amazing things
It's easy to miss and easy to mistake
For when things are really great
It just means everything's in its place
When everything was over
And we loaded up the van
I turned and said to dan,
Dan, i guess this is our prime
Like they tell us all the time
Weren't you expecting some other kind?


Oh, experience is cheap
If that's the company you keep
But i'll never get that disease
'cause i've had it
I've had it

So he's retired
Lives with his sister in a furnished flat
He's got this suit that
He'll never wear outside without a hat
His hair is white but he looks half his age
He looks like jimmy stewart in his younger days.


And honestly, i might be
Stupid to think love is love
But i do
And you've waited so long and
I've waited long enough for you.

My mother's calling
From where she's living up in troy, vermont
She tries to tell me
A father figure must be what i want
I've always thought age makes no difference
Am i the only one to whom that's making sense?


And honestly, i might be
Stupid to think love is love
But i do
And you've waited so long and
I've waited long enough for you.

The day i met him he was raking leaves
In his tiny yard.
Of course i know that
We've only got ten years, or twenty, left
But to be honest
I'm happy with whatever time we get
Depending on which book you read
Sometimes it takes a lifetime to get what you need.


And honestly, i might be
Stupid to think love is love
But i do
And you've waited so long and
I've waited long enough for you.

Well, today a friend told me this sorry tale as he stood there trembling and turning pale he said each day's harder to get on the scale sort of like jacob marley's chain.

But it's not like life's such a veil of tears it's just full of thoughts that act as souvenirs for those tiny blunders made in yesteryears that comprise jacob marley's chain.

Well, i had a little metaphor to state my case it encompassed the condition of the human race but to my dismay, it left without a trace except for the sound of jacob marley's chain.

Now there is no story left to tell so i think i'd rather just go on to hell where there's a snowball's chance that the personnel might help to carry jacob marley's chain.

This is for the one who was false
Who taught me about building walls
One who could always turn it around
To leave me here on shaky ground
This is for the one who made good
In someone else's neighborhood
One who was never anything but
The shifty eye of sheer bad luck
Once i thought that i would never forget
And i have not quite done that yet


But i could hurt you now
I could hurt you now

This is for the time that i lost
The death of who i thought i was
The things in which i cannot believe
For fear i'll wear them on my sleeve
Things i know that will never be returned
But i crossed that bridge before it burned


So i could hurt you now
I could hurt you now
(listen, sonny boy
You just don't get it, do you)
I could hurt you now
(tell you what i'll do
I'll get that message to you)

Maybe it leaves an invisible scar
But i have not come quite that far


But i could hurt you now
(listen, sonny boy
You just don't get it, do you)
I could hurt you now
(tell you what i'll do
I'll get that message to you)

You see me as a judge
Though i deny it
And hold me like a grudge
Then justify it
But when you make such claims
In searching for something that explains
Please take a good look at our remains


'cause if you were everything you say
Things would be different today
And maybe there's room for compromise
But signs that i get say otherwise
Say anything, 'cause i've heard everything

As hopeless as it seems
I wouldn't worry
You'll get your chance to tell
Your side of the story
And, raising your right hand,
Whatever defenses you had planned,
Remember that when you take the stand -


If you were everything you say
Things would be different today
And though i'd be happy to believe
I'd have to be much more naive -
Say anything, 'cause i've heard everything
Now i've heard everything
Now i've heard everything

So why do i refuse
The truth, when i clearly cannot use
The comfort of one more lame excuse


'cause if you were everything you say
Things would be different today
And if you were everything you swear
We wouldn't be beyond repair
If you were everything you say
Things would be different today
And if there has got to be an if -
Get it over with
Say anything, 'cause i've heard everything
Now i've heard everything
Now i've heard everything

I should thank you almost
No one could kill it off until you bled it
But i got rid of that ghost
'though certain habits remain imbedded
With the shadow of a doubt
But baby it was you who fed it
And i don't know what else to say
But i think you get it.


I should've known
It was coming down to this
I should've known
You would betray me but without the kiss
I should've known
The kind of set-up it is.

And always isn't always
When it's not your photograph that i've been keeping
But you still live in those days
When i'd stay awake just to watch you sleeping
You delivered that blow
But it left a mark on me that you're not seeing
And i don't know what else you hear
But it's not me weeping


I should've known
It was coming down to this
I should've known
You would betray me but without the kiss
I should've known
The kind of set-up it is.

I should've seen the cracks in the ceiling
And the mirror covered up with dust
But i was busy talking on the phone
I should've seen the obstacles but i said,
This house was built for us
Hello
Is anybody home?


I should've known
The minute that we hit the wall
I should've known
The writing was upon the stall
I should've known
'cause rome was starting to fall

And i should thank you, almost.