Disintegration

"i think it's dark and it looks like rain" you said
"and the wind is blowing like it's the end of the
World" you said "and it's so cold it's like the
Cold if you were dead" and then you smiled for
A second.
"i think i'm old and i'm in pain" you said
"and it's all running out like it's the end of the
World" you said "and it's so cold it's like the
Cold if you were dead" and then you smiled for
A second

Sometimes you make me feel like i'm living at
The edge of the world like i'm living at the edge
Of the world "it's just the way i smile" you said

Hey hey! just one more and i'll walk away
All the everything you win turns to nothing today
And i forget when to move when my mouth is this
Dry and my eyes are bursting hearts in a blood-stained sky
Oh it was sweet it was wild and oh how we...
I trembled stuck in honey
Honey cling to me so just one more just one more
Go inspire in me the desire in me to never go home
Oh just one more and i'll walk away
All the everything you win turns to nothing today
So just one more just one more go inspire in me
The desire in me to never go home

Oh i miss the kiss of treachery the shameless
Kiss of vanity the soft and the black and the
Velvety up tight against the side of me and
Mouth and eyes and heart all bleed and run in
Thickening streams of greed as bit by bit it
Starts the need to just let go my party piece
Oh i miss the kiss of treachery the aching kiss
Before i feed the stench of a love for a younger
Meat and the sound that it makes when it cuts
In deep the holding up on bended knees the
Addiction of duplicities as bit by bit it starts
The need to just let go my party piece

But i never said i would stay to the end so i
Leave you with babies and hoping for frequency
Screaming like this in the hope of the secrecy
Screaming me over and over and over i leave
You with photographs pictures of trickery
Stains on the carpet and stains on the scenery
Songs about happiness murmured in dreams
When we both us knew how the ending would
Be...

So it's all come back round to breaking apart
Again breking apart like i'm made up of glass
Again making it up behind my back again
Holding my breath for the fear of sleep again
Holding it up behind my head again cut in deep
To the heart of the bone again round and round
And round and it's coming apart again over and
Over and over

Now that i know that i'm breaking to pieces
I'll pull out my heart and i'll feed it to anyone
Crying for sympathy
Crocodile cry for the love of the crowd and the three cheers from everyone
Dropping through sky through the glass of the roof through the roof of your mouth
Through the mouth of your eye through the eye
Of the needle it's easier for me to get closer to
Heaven than ever feel whole again

I never said i would stay to the end i knew
I would leave you with babies and everything
Screaming like this in the hole of sincerity
Screaming me over and over and over i leave
You with photographs pictues of trickery
Stains on the carpet and stains on the memory
Songs about happiness murmured in dreams when
Both of us knew how the end always is...

How the end always is...

You shatter me your grip on me a hold on me
So dull it kills you stifle me infectious sense of
Hopelessness and prayers for rain i suffocate i
Breathe in dirt and nowhere shines but desolate
And drab the hours all spent on killing time
Again all waiting for the rain
You fracture me your hands on me a touch so
Plain so stale it kills you strangle me entangle
Me in hopelessness and prayers for rain i
Deteriorate i live in dirt and nowhere glows but
Drearily and tired the hours all spent on killing
Time again all waiting for the rain

On candystripe legs spiderman comes
Softly through the shadow of the evening sun
Stealing past the windows of the blissfully dead
Looking for the victim shivering in bed
Searching out fear in the gathering gloom and
Suddenly! a movement in the corner of the
Room! and there is nothing i can do when i
Realise with freight that the spiderman is having
Me for dinner tonight
Quietly he laughs and shaking his head creeps
Closer now closer to the foot of the bed and
Softer than shadow and quicker than flies his
Arms are all around me and his tongue in my
Eyes "be still be calm be quiet now my precious
Boy don't struggle like that or i will only love
You more for it's much too late to get away or
Turn on the light the spiderman is having you
For dinner tonight"

And i feel like i'm being eaten by a thousand
Million shivering furry holes and i know that in
The morning i will wake up in the shivering cold
And the spiderman is always hungry...

Oh it's opening time
Down on fascination street
So let's cut the conversation
And get out for a bit
Because i feel it all fading and paling
And i'm begging to drag you down with me
To kick the last nail in
Yeah i like you in that like i like you to scream
But if you open your mouth then i cant be responsible for
Quite what goes in or to care what comes out
So just pull on your hair
Just pull on your pout
And let's move to the beat
Like we know that it's over
If you slip going under
Slip over my shoulder
So just pull on your face
Just pull on your feet
And let's hit opening time
Down on fascination street
So pull on your hair
Pull on your pout
Cut the conversation just open your mouth
Pull on your face pull on your feet
And let's hit opening time
Down on fascination street