From This Day On

Your essence lingers for days on end
Perception is dead I can't pretend
Staring purity deep blue caress
Your warmth heals my disfigured distress

Distraction is an easy target for me
My mind is a team player
That's all I will be
The ideal life lies in the past

The sun is gonna set
I wish you could see the disillusion in my soul
How can your heart be so warm while your kiss is so fucking cold?
I'll wait for you 'til the oceans run dry

The true love in my heart will never die
Take me to your garden
And lay me down to rest
Life goes on they say

I think I'll wait for another day
To realize what's gone wrong
Why must I wait for so long?

My blind attraction will still remain
When I see your smile it kills all the pain
This sickness is burning my eyes from the inside out
Tonight I'll hide away the lies before you find out

I keep on telling myself my life will change in time
I wish I could erase the memories infecting my mind
Someone always has to play the fool
When I hear that song I'll always think of you

You never know what you have until you know its gone
My only way out is singing this song
I keep on telling myself my life will change in time
I wish I could erase the memories infecting my mind

Time kills the passion
I lay down and close my eyes
Love is my bleeding infection
I bury my head in your lies

I kiss temptation on the lips to kill the desire
The sunset burns while I put out your fire.

Reminiscence of the past brings a smile
Friends come and go with every mile
These painted pictures in my head won't fade away
The colors seem brighter to me with every day
Where's my heaven where's my hell?
Let me out of this cold dark cell

I scrape the blood off my bones to tell you how I feel
Abandoned and deprived of knowing what is real

Fantasy infatuation
My heart is possessed
Emotional mutilation
My mind grows grotesque
Love is an indistinct illusion
For those who will never see
Your separated from reality
By ignorant confusion just like me
I'll never be who you want me to be.