Cactus Patch

It's creeping up on me, I open my eyes.
Awake from my sleeping and watch the sun rise.
For all of the days I spent hungry and alone
Cold and confusion eating to the bone
For all of the pain is now falling to the side
I cry to the heavens and reach for the sky
Look at these hands, Look at these hands, because they're free at last
And now I can dance
Now I can laugh, it's been so long.
But now I can
For all of the days. . .
Look at these hands. . .
Now I can laugh, now I can dance.
The veil has been lifted, I'm never looking back
'Cause now I have found freedom. . .at last. . .
Look at these hands. . .

What should I do with this rose I got for you?
Once intense colors and smells now fade away
I didn't even leave my bed today.
Surrender me in misery

Exhausting thoughts enveloping
Mirror, mirror on the wall you muddle, mislead
No solace in this quiet moment
Thoughts on fire run deep

Toss and turn, I feel the burn, if I could sleep. . .
With eyes open in my bloodshot room
I rise up in the dark, pace around, lie back down,
I realize how far you are.

Rewind in my head replay slow motion every word I said
Rewind in my head replay slow motion every word you said
I wish that we flowed, I wish that we grown
I wish that I was holding you as my very own

Seems I remember things, things that I regret seem to follow me
When I'm trying to sleep.
My little lilac flower
Your scent it draws me near

Delicate and beautiful I can taste you in my tears.
I need sweet sleep
I though this was so perfect, like it could last forever.
But the best thing that I ever had, just wasn't good enough
So I'm moving on.