I Packed My Bags a Year in Advance

I stayed home
There's nothing here for me and
I don't know
If opportunity will knock

But the days are going fast
And life's beginning to pass me by
So sorry
I didn't make the grades and

So lonely
I can't breathe (thirty six hours a day)
And I'm choking on every possible way
I could fuck up again

I will fuck up again
Close my eyes and go to sleep
I'll hide away in my dreams
Alone in the backyard

I feel so small tonight and I'm scared that the sun is almost rising
To set me on my way again
This season my heart is states away
And no reason is left for me to stay

But I keep coming back
And its beginning to feel a lot like home