In Moderation

Took a drive up the coast for the first time
Where the cities are few and far between
Found redemption, the street signs bearing my name
And direction, the last thing on my mind

Cuz i fell once again for believing
And in faith, i began to drive
I left my home to search for a feeling
That i'd lost that must have died. i must have died

I've been feeling uninspired
Battered and...broken tired c
Uz there's many things i've never learned
Or even decided...what i'm ready to serve

Falling asleep, the back of my car
Who'd have believed i could get this far
Now all of my friends have lost the defense
Doesn't make much sense...i don't need sense

The city slips away too soon
Tonight she's wide awake
Making small talk with mr. moon
Singing louder than the rain
On nights like these she can be herself
She forgets i'm there but it's just as well
I always feel like i'm by myself
And she never will, oh never will

She says she hates the fact that men can see
She wants to tear the eyes
Out of everything

What makes her feel the way she feels
Like everything is nothing
What makes her see the things she sees
Like everything that's wrong with me
I guess i should stop trying to figure her out
I should know by now that i'm not allowed
Now i know this is not allowed
If i want to keep her coming 'round

She says she hates the fact that men can see
She wants to tear the eyes

You try and fill my mind with doubt
Say i've forgotten who i am
But maybe you've forgotten how to understand...so

Bridge:
You try and fill my mind with doubt
Say i've forgotten who i am
But maybe you've forgotten how to understand...so

Bridge:
Have your whispers, i excused myself too soon
Antisocial, maybe yes and maybe you

Chorus:
Two days after the flood begins to settle down
I sit alone in a room full of friends
My would-be savior slips something into my
Mouth...for kicks

You live a life without regret
Bend a truth until it breaks
I thought i'd seen you at your best
But my mistake...so

(bridge)

(chorus)

Missed the meeting, missed the meeting
Where my friends discussed why
I'm not around, i'm not around
You say i don't know who my real friends are
All i know is my real friends aren't
Talking behind my back, talking behind my back

Chorus:
Assuming things before they even ask me
Why i'm not behaving like i should
In their mind's eye, but they don't even know me
And i don't think they ever could

Missed the meeting, missed the meeting
Where my friends discussed why
I'm not around, i'm not around
If it's really important for you to say
Then you can say it to my face
Stop hiding out, stop hiding out

(chorus)

Maybe you fear what you don't know
And it hurts too much just to let it g

You don't want to know
But that won't stop me from showing

For nights i drank too much
And words exchanged in the morning
For always pushing my luck
Expecting you to keep waiting

I want to be faithful
But as far as i can tell
I'm not doing so well...thus far
But maybe tomorrow
You'll wake up to find out
If i'm not good enough for now
I'm good enough to wait for you

What have you been told
What are you so afraid of
Should i be so bold
And ask where that one came from

Can i be read my rights
Before you put me on trial
My past offense precedes my name

Ever since i was a child
You always said that i should understand the rules
You take some and give less
Sit high above the rest...don't you

As i ask a simple question
Cuts me off with his reply
He's been practicing for decades
Now he thinks i have the time
He flows in and out of riddles
Looking me straight in the eye
But it seems like something's missing
From the days when he was more my size

Chorus:
Ten years older and i've finally found my pride
This old man comes rolling home to die
Old feelings make it hard to decide
Just what it means to me

Everything exists 'tween black and white
You can twist and distort the most blatant of lies
Or just offer up solutions
Practiced only in your mind