Calculated

if i show you that i'm alive
if i show you i've got feelings inside
if i show you that i'm not perfect
then will you know that you can hurt me


but if you think
that i'm not strong
you best watch out
nothing can stop me


i read your words and cry
you betray my trust a million times
you poison my life with lies
you victimize, victimize, victimize you victimize


but if you think
that i'm not strong
you best watch out
nothing can stop me


i got a heart that's true
i got somethings i must do
i know that everything's fucked up
but i ain't ever gonna shut up


but if you think
that i'm not strong
you best watch out
nothing can stop me
not you, not you! (nothing, you can't stop)


but if you think
that i'm not strong
you'd best watch out

I don't know how to be good to you
You're too close and you know it too
Nobody has a good enough excuse
I'm just fucked up and so are you

I love you so much you could hurt me
So I do it first so you won't see me
Laugh it off and I don't feel it
Hard as rocks and nails underneath
Hardly anyone is sincere

All I know is anger that is real
I barely know how true goodness feels
I don't even know how to feel
I know I built walls all around
I'm begging you to knock them down
But yours are just as big and mean as mine
Tight defenses and we draw the line

If you want to go, just go
I'll watch you walk away
I don't care if you go
I'll watch you walk away
I'll die if you go
I'll watch you walk away

Stop everything
Stop all these fucked up games
Promise me we'll be good to each other
Promise me, I need it signed, sealed, delivered

Stop everything
Or my heart will break
My pride isn't worth it
Help me this is hurting
If you want to go just go
I'll watch you walk away

Super girl
She isn't real
I can't fly all alone
I can't even get off the ground
I don't know what else to say
I don't want to push you away
I need your help today
I can't get off the ground today