A Thought Crushed My Mind

I answer with a restless ok but I'm about to blow when you're gone
I keep this to myself a restless ok but I fear the dawn
I've never been afraid to hide up in the dark
It's the first morning stream of pure light that makes me rather swim with the sharks
And it'll make me say I'm ok even though it hurts more if I stay
And I'm ok. Yes, I'm ok. If that'll make your questions go away

I'm a vampire, I'm a vampire, I'm afraid the light will set me on fire

I'm cold in a way I just want to stay
And I'm cold this way

Reckon I'll close the door
Pull down the curtains stay close to the floor
Mercy is for the weak, we do not train to be merciful here
Mercy is everything I fear we do not train to see His mercy here

Crawling again
The heart is screaming with a smile
Pride says no because of the stain
The heart pounds for love, pride says no
Because of what the heart is longing for
I'm not sure I want to be a man anymore

This choice I've got to make, I've got to make alone
A heart of stone
This choice I've got to make
I've got to make it true
A heart broken in two

Just one last cigarette and fly
Coincidences made sorrow rule over your soul
I'm standing with my wings around you
I cry

So try to show you're a man
You're nobody's toy
There is nothing that separates a man from a boy

Thought so dark you got lost in there
Lost your way home and now it's getting late
I long to greet you when you come home
But don't you leave earth in this state

No don't you leave earth in this state
I'm the soft whisper of peace in your ear
As all of this creates
No night vision in this forest of darkness
And I feel what you feel inside
And as your skin got burned mine did too when they lied

And you know I'm pulling you closer

Hennes hjärta slog hårdare för varje sekund
Skalet höll emot som aldrig förut
En vägran till var allt detta har sin grund
Skalet höll emot men stora bucklor buktar ut

Inte nu kanske senare och aldrig förut
Som en blomma som aldrig slagit ut
Om en längtan som aldrig fött ett beslut
Om en längtan som aldrig tagit slut

Med fötterna så långt under markytan
Och ändå bärare av ett rotlöst hjärta
För svårt att ta sig upp och ändå veta
Att skönhet kommer ur smärta

Och jag önskar jag kunde dra dig upp därifrån
Men ingen annan utom den ende kan
Och jag önskar jag kunde dra dig upp därifrån
Min tunga kan aldrig klä i ord att min låga är sann

Och jag ska aldrig mer vara rädd att visa mig vek
Aldrig mer med hot försöka bevisa min kärlek

Så låt dig träffas i hjärtat låt det få blöda
Om jag kunde skulle jag ta tillbaks de ord som var döda
Om hans liv fick bli din föda
Om ditt hjärta fick blöda

Vilket val du än tar
Står jag kvar

Möt mig vid fridsfurstens fötter
Jag har ingenting utom det
som är mina rötter
Möt mig på knä framför hans fötter

I'll break my vow of silence

Because I am what you told me you are
Because you showed me your unhealed scar
Revealed and died in your own eyes
Relieved me to see my own lies

Through the years it has become darker in that secret place
His light pierced this lonely chamber through you
And the truth shall set you free
I'll remember your truth that set me free from it getting
Darker and darker in that secret place

It came flying through the air like a beautiful shadow
Made me turn my head
The taste of danger is sweet
I've always known but still allowed this to be my bread
Evil crow lands on my head, I let it stay
Whispers so I think only I can hear it and I obey

Who would think that so much beauty would come from such horrible truth
Because I am...

Toungue too ashamed to even pronounce it right
I spoke but kept it in me with ropes so tight
This is my fight, the word was spoken and I got my sight

Promise so glad I wasn't able to keep
Words formed by your soul is my reflection
Lie was bound to my heart to keep
Broke chains through your confession

Talks about it all the time
It's a sickness he says
So sure all the time
He hates it
And I honestly believe him
So sure all the time

Maybe the one who screams the most
Screams about him self
Fed up of giving up
Clean cup please drink up

He sees it's eating him up
It's the price he pays
But it's not even worth a dime
So scared that people may find out
He is what he hates
So scared all the time

This is his naked inside

Piece by piece he's trying to build a ladder
For him to fall from
Everytime he climbs
He condemns their actions
So that no one will suspect
That he's the victim for his own crime

This is his darkness
In which he will stand
This is his naked inside
Alone in a desert land
And I'm a coward
Shut my eyes and concentrate
On my shell, on soap and shower
Oh God how I want to tell the world
But I hesitate

So why don't I have the guts to tell you he's me?