Very Proud Of Ya

I'll turn you on and switch you right off.
I'll make sure you like what you see.
Forget all that you cone believed.
Now you will believe in me.
Do you believe you make the choice,
Decide what you hold most dear?
In all opinions that you voice,
It's my voice that they all hear.
I'll take you ideas and your values,
I'll make you turn them all around.
I'll break your individuality,
I'll take you down.
I'll seal shut your open eyes.
I'll give you a taste on the bland.
Intoxicate you, take me in.
You'll never feel the touch of my hand.
I'll turn you on and switch you right off.
I'll soothe your troubled mind.
You'll never have to think again,
It's just a matter of lost time.

There's no hope of helping us
We've only just begun
We're youth eternal,
Nothing more to become.
A thousand lights are burning bright
Give day a darkened light,
Always burning from both ends.

We're proud of reputations we all own
Together forever,
Rejected but never alone
Together forever.

I'd purify the world with one primal scream,
But no one would listen.
Keep dark secrets to myself,
Because no one else will talk to me.

It's hard for me to comprehend,
They couldn't understand
All the thoughts going through our heads.
With a smile they tore us up,
Now look what we've become.
Finally we are numb.

We're proud of reputations we all own
Together forever,
Togther forever alone
Together forever.

I'd purify the world with one primal scream,
But no one would listen.
Keep dark secrets to myself,
Because no one else will talk to me.

I'd purify the world with one primal scream,
But no one would listen.
Keep dark secrets to myself,
Because no one else will talk to me.

No need to,
No need to feel,
I've got a nothingness and that's all that's real.
No need to cut the numbness inside.
No need to,
No need to hear.
What you've got to say means nothing at all.
I've got no distance left to fall.

I'd purify the world with one primal scream,
But no one would listen.
Keep dark secrets to myself,
Because no one else will talk to me.

You keep on sayin' that you want to know me
But you never show me your true self.
How can you ever expect someone else to know you
When all you're going to do is just pretend that
You're someone else?
You keep on sayin' that you want to show me
That you're really different, but your just the same.
If you're really mindless then there is no way
That i can win,
Maybe you're just one of them,
Or maybe it's just a game.
You lie to yourself and remain alone.
I'm not exactly sure of your motivation.
I'm not exactly sure what you're tryin' to do.
All i'm really sure is that you're not too impressive
And you're wearin' a mask
That i can't see through.
Maybe you're not looking for acceptance,
Maybe you're striving for something more.
If it's status that you lust then why try to be one of us?
You're someone we'll never trust 'cause we know the score.

I'm here today,
Just like every yesterday.
Heavy heat,
And sheets stick to my skin.
Can't get away from nothingness.
I try to get up,
But i have to give in to the force that is keeping me down.
I overcome gravity,
I look outside.
A cat cries out,
Trapped upon a window sill,
But is crying's drowned out by my screaming inside.
What will it take?
I wonder what it's like exposed outside,
Would i be safe?
When will it break.
Try to look out,
I see reflection i just want to break.
Sirens moan.
They're forever crying...someone's probably dying.
The sound sticks inside my head.
Talk to myself,
I'm company,
But who is to say if nothing if said?
Two windows stare back at me.
Three stories high nothing is new.
I may sit,
But someday i'll stand.
I'll muster up the will and fire myself through.

You say you want to be friends,
Start over, try again?
Well, things will never be the way they were back then.
Things were never how you wanted,
I couldn't think of you that way.
Now, if you take one step closer i will take two steps away.
Maybe you need affection,
I'd like to help you but i can't stand when you're around:
Fuck you very much.
Maybe you need to talk,
But you betrayed my trust.
Friends was not good enough?
Fuck you very much.
You can always claim you're straightedge,
Go ahead and dye your hair.
You won't get more attention from me,
'cause i will never fucking care.
I try to remain secret,
Shooting away and hiding out,
But you always track me down.
Open your eyes and figure it out.
I'm not trying again.
I'm sick of seeing you.
Don't wanna be your friend.
I wish you'd go away.

What was it i was thinking,
Or was i even thinking at all?
When i think of what i thought back then,
Then i'm ashamed;
And i'm appalled that i gave up all i was so easily.
Living your life is not for me.
I won't be sedated,
I won't be sedated!
Give me a little taste and i know i won't want more.
I won't be sedated, stability is overrated.
Give me the disorder i adore.
I can't be a part, be a part,
I can't be a part.
I can't be a part,
Be a part of your modern world.
I've gotta be apart, be apart,
I've gotta be apart.
I've gotta be apart.
I can't grasp the values that you hold.
What was it you were thinking,
Or were you even thinking at all?
When i think of what you thought of me,
I take offense;
And i'm appalled that you could discount all i love so easily.
Living our life is not for me.

You've got something to say,
Or so you say to me,
Then you receive a blank stare.
You've got something to say of importance and gosh,
That's really good to hear.
I'm proud of you,
So proud of you,
I'm proud of you,
I'm very proud of you.
You've got something s.p. - some to show to me.
Well, i have seen it before.
I can't compete, i can't impress you.
I guess i'll show you the door.

Just like cellophane,
You try to cling so tight to me,
But your attempt's in vain.
You've less sincerity than the plastic.
Paper in rain.
The print appears so bright to me.
The words remain.
I hold it to the light,
I see right through.
So eager to say,
"hello", but you don't know me.
You just know what you see.
Pay the price to see the show but you don't own me.
Before you knew would you have felt the same?
Just when i'm inspired,
You drain the drive right outta me,
And even when i'm tired you push me to perform for you amusement.
Just like raging fire,
You burn what's left inside of me and to fulfill your desire,
I'd give you light till i burned out.
Just when you start to smile,
I look into your eyes
And see your veiled denial to express any real emotion.
Just wait around a while,
You'll lose what you once had for me.
I'll be out of style,
I'll be discarded with the warmth you once feigned.

Hangin' out and lingerin' around,
'cause you know where i'll be found
And i don't know how you do it.
This obsession i must admit has shaken me up a bit.
My solidarity now only comes in pairs.
I'd like to see you before you see me.
I'd like to see you.
I'd like to see you leave.
Showered by torrential praise,
Why it is i can't explain.
Attempts to leave yield no avail.
For me i don't know what's in store.
All i want is nothing more.
I don't deserve what i get,
I have nothing to return.

Don't care to hear what you heard.
I won't believe a single word.
Don't care to hear what you say.
I won't believe it anyway.
You relay fiction,
Facts you avoid.
You're just like a fucking tabloid,
You can never seem to get your information straight.
Tell me something i don't know.
Your information's fucking faux.
Don't you have somewhere to go?
Your mouth is quick,
Your mind is slow.
Don't want to know what you know.
I just want you to fucking go.
Don't want to know what you believe.
I just wish that you would leave.
You try to cajz everyday,
I wish that you would get away.
You can never seem to get your information straight.
When you try to hang around,
I'd really like to push you down.
When you try to understand,
I don't really think that you can.