Mata Leao

The sun is shining, but i don't know if it'll shine again,
The sky is clear now, but the clouds wait overhead,
The wind stopped blowing, but i see the trees are flowing,
The water's calm now feel the undertow towing me down,
Towing me down.


The sun's gone down now behind the dark clouds looming,
Birds stop singing, silence so soothing,
Dark clouds open up, i hold my rain-soaked head,
Thoughts are racing by, i scream and wish that i was dead,
I wish that i was dead.


Gotta find a way in this world to cope,
Gotta find a place in this world with hope.


Gotta find a way to keep my head straight another day
I pray to let go of hate i break myself away from my mind,
I search for inner peace i never find.

On your knees before the mighty them, receive communion once again,
Obey and follow strict laws to the letter,
Do as you're told and life will be better,
Go with the flow, avoid the strife, let unknown powers rule your life,
A box of glass dictates your death stolen minds innocence last breath.


On your knees pray to the one you appease.


Whatever happened to the good old days no mental smokescreen subliminal haze,
Corporate society prints out your thoughts spirituality sold and bought.
Now your life is all dictated, all you stood for, all you hated,
Establishment prevails again on your knees before the mighty them.


Look in my eyes and you will find,
Another way to get through your life,
Stare at my face, make up your mind,
And you will find love at first sight,
Connect your soul now get online,
Mind control taking your life.


Try not to look

I feel a weight that's pulling me down,
But my reflex is to try to break out,
Nature gives fight or flight syndrome,
But my feet stay on the ground that's how i've grown,
Bred to resist the gravity of anything that's fucking with me,
Survivalist instincts through my veins are pounding,
Transfused at birth by my urban surroundings.


Gravity won't allow me to fly,
It pulls me down, the pain, i won't cry,
Resistance and drive fueled by hunger,
What doesn't kill me makes me stronger.


I just can't let shit get to me,
Got to reflect back on what pop taught me,
To be your own man no matter what,
To never back down, and follow your gut,
Instinct, something he said that i'd know,
Something that i'd carry wherever i go,
He told me someday i'd have to fight to be free,
And resist the weight of gravity.


Calloused hands wipe away tears,
Of the pain of a man broken by years,
A silent shot that nobody hears,
A smoking gun of our own fears,
My father worked all his life and for what,
Day in, day out, caught in a rut,
The pain of apathy, razor-sharp cutting,
But i'll make sure he doesn't die for nothing.

The dirt's so thick it won't come clean,
All around a haze like a smoke screen,
I can't see you but you see me,
But i might be gone before you count to three.
The waters are totally polluted,
The armies inside my head have feuded,
One side has smothered the other,
The disease it spreads and begins to cover.


Maggot infested soul of mine,
Has painted me in a corner confined.
My vision is blurred no reason or rhyme,
Help me escape these walls i climb.


I'm drowning in my own shit, gasping,
Gagging on the vomit asphyxiated, grasping,
For a grip on the soap with the rope,
So i can get clean and begin to cope,
Scrub me 'til i'm raw, an open sore oozing
Unless i'm clean i might start losing.
My mind and my life would have a fucked-up ending,
Thank god if you ever see cleansing.


Sewn my eyes shut can't you see i'm smothered?
Deaf, dumb and blind the dirt has covered
The windows which let the light shine through,
Cleansing of the soul for i am you.


The last time i slept i dreamt.
My friend and i we got so high.
On top of mountains, deep in the sky,
Way up high where the white goes by.
The air is thin and hard to breathe.
But with a friend near, by your side,
You can conquer the world or wander around all starry-eyed.
I laid there and dreamt along for a ride.
I took in the journey, my friend beside.
It all seemed so real, it all seemed surreal,
My friend and i were one deep inside.
These dreams come and go and are never the same.
I await new journeys asleep i remain.


When i hold my eyes shut tight i dream.
When i dream at night through my dreams i scream.
Why do people have to go and fucking change?
What pushed my friend to tap the vein?
Asleep at night i visit my friend.
Asleep at night i miss my friend.

We used to be part of the same thing,
But now you make strides for the gold ring,
You make our sacred ground into a slaughterhouse,
You used to look me in the eye but now you look me up and down.


Competition always looking out for self,
Indecision and then your friendship fell,
No religion no ethics in your ways,
I pray for you to see the error of your days,
I pray for you to see the error of your ways.


Step up for the crew to represent,
But what do you stand for? you only resent.
It was all for one, but now you blew it,
I know you're not down and i can see right through it.


What you give is what you get and i know it's not respect.
What you give is what you get jealous ways you'll soon regret.

The pain creeps in every day,
And you're trying your best not to feel this way,
Some days up and some days down,
Swimming in misery, you're starting to drown
Looking for answers to impossible questions,
Searching in your mind in new dimensions,
Feeling so alone and you've been thinking,
"i'm better off dead than alone here, sinking!"


Searching for the light and looking inside,
To find out where your true strengths hide.


Going on and on this pain has got to cease,
Living like an animal full of disease,
Further inspection now you're looking inside,
To find out where your true strengths hide,
You're looking around for some higher power,
To get you through this darkest hour,
All those years of pain are now coming through,
Those cracks in your mind are nothing new to you.


You're starting to slip to a whole new level,
The metal of a gun pressed against your temple,
One in the chamber, maybe one in your head,
You can pull the trigger, and your mind'll turn red,
What about the things that you never did?
Getting straight, get a life, maybe having kids?
Is a moment's pleasure really worth the cost,
Of looking back on your life and all the things you lost?


Don't know my future, with my past behind,
I'm now reborn new hopes to find,
Free from restraints that held me down,
The cycle of hate that comes around.

Drug infested, narcotic, electric, schizophrenic,
Murderer arrested, a child molested, a race detested,
A building burnt down, insurance invested,
Homelessness lingers all around, rape, death, sickness,
Homeward bound unemployed, no love, no joy,
Cut down to size, a life destroyed, war, no peace,
Death, tragedy, no cure, disease, aids, leprosy,
A veteran dead below the knee, eyes burn in your head,
You cannot see.


Spending all my time just standing in line,
And i'm waiting, waiting to die,
Watching every day of my life go by,
Just waiting, waiting to die.


Children beaten, poisons eaten, look at the world, we're self-defeating,
Reputed, undisputedly polluted, crack heads with guns ain't afraid to shoot it,
Countries fighting for oil and gold while the hole in the ozone layer's out of control,
Brother kills brother in a world full of hate, too fucking late our heads on a plate,
Nature's dying, children crying, human race ass in a fucking pan frying,
With no one to blame except ourselves, greed transforms our earth into hell.


Murder, middle east assassination, extermination, human termination,
The war on drugs, humiliation,
A ruined nation, with no explanation.
Something to hide bound and gagged and tied,
A gun in your hand at your head, suicide,
It's censorship of my pure mind,
No justice, no truce, no hope to find.