Daybreak

No matter how neurotic my mind
That's not what I wanted to say
I'm running out of words
Hey hey

I've always loved you
I've always cared
But in the past I wasn't there

Out to the desert
To disappear
Only to find I wasn't there

Everything I knew was wrong
What is really going on?

There in the darkest depths of my mind
That's not what I wanted to say
I'm running out of words
Hey hey

They'll sell sarcasm
And constant fear
Don't be so far don't be so near

The missing papers
The souvenir
No one around no one can hear

All at once we want to live
Holy water won't wash away sin

Up in the sky the sun is red
What's in the past and what's ahead?

Oh can I live with what's in my heart?
That's not what I wanted to say
I'm running out of words

I think I'm starting to see
The love I need is inside of me
As I look to you now
Vow and confess
You're the light in my eyes

Of all the things that I've said
Of all the things I'll never get back
The only thing I would change
Is walking away
When you needed me here

And I could see it in your eyes
You were blind to see me
You see the man I used to be

Of course I say to myself
"I lost my way refusing your help"
But here inside all along
Waiting for you
To come home to yourself

So now it's just you and me
And yesterday is gone we agree
As we open our arms
Up to the sun
See the rain now is gone

I'm dead inside and dying more everyday
Castrate my eyes and cut the lines in my face
The alcohol the empty walls regress regress erase regret
Return me now to where I was long ago
Yeah yeah yeah

I need you, I need your love.
I'm trying, to rise above.
I want you, to bring me back to life.

I feel their voices in the back of my head
I hear their eyes and turn when nobody is there
The TV screens, the magazines depress disease deny your dreams
Dislocate drain to drifting losing control
Yeah yeah yeah

I need you, I need your love.
I'm trying, to rise above.
I want you, to bring me back to life.

Bring me back to life
Bring me back to life
Bring me back to life

The lack, the need, the fear, the greed
Redeem amend remember when
Return me now to where I was long ago
Yeah yeah yeah

I need you, I need your love.
I'm trying, to rise above.
I want you, I need your love
I want you to bring me back to life.

My Heart is gone,
It drove to the shore,
Swam out in the night,
Way out past the lines,
I heard that now,
It lives in the south,
Of West Central Spain,
Drinking off the pain,
I don't blame it,
I'm filled with regret,
I wish I were him,
I could crawl out my skin,
Because inside, I'm broke,
I'm cracked, I'm alone,
No hope for a change,
No way to erase,
The world would be,
Better without me,
So How could this be?
Somehow, you love me.
Somehow, you love me.
Somehow, you live me.

I stepped out to see the stars fall,
Alone on the neighbor's lawn.
I held my hand on my head,
Now I'm waiting to hear you call

I'm going out my mind,
I'm giving up the fight this time,
So love me all and go, no longer care if I die alone

The whole world is waiting, watching to see when your gonna fall,
Ten thousand faces staring and your back is against the wall,
Fucked up pass the point of fixing, so tell me what went wrong

I'm going out my mind,
I'm giving up the fight this time,
Love me all and go, no longer care if I die alone,

Cause' in the darkness of my mind,
I used to dream of suicide,
I'm gonna pull myself out,
Before I die.

I'm going out my mind,
I'm giving up the fight this time,
Love me all and go, no longer care if I die alone,

Now it's eight in the morning,
Up all night just walking around.
I'm hiding out here under the window
By the sink where we used to laugh all day long.
I wait till I see you walking
From the bedroom down to the kitchen.
Fingering your hand into curls while talking
On the phone resting on your collarbone.

Here I come again, head is hanging low.
You put down the phone, take me in our arms.
And I'm all alone with you my love.
And did you hear me coming?

Running over the words I said last night.
While wishing I never saw your eyes
Swell up with tears dripping down your thighs.
I can't let it go, I'm lost inside.

I can get so low.
Seems like there's no up and I'm all alone
So take me in your arms knowing I'm the one.

I turn around to say how could you still love me.
Sun is shining, lighting up your face.
You stare off into space not knowing what to say.
Searching for the words to set things straight so I say

I'm a Zig Zag sideways, upside down, out of my mind
What's the point of living if were all just born to die.
You say why?
Why ask why?

I say "I get fucked up."
You say "delusional."
Somehow will you still open arms.

"Come with me" you say.
We step outside to face the sun.
Yesterday I dream that it would all bend out to dust.

Take a breath, turn around.
See the sun come through the clouds, the light alive in your eyes.
Standing here by your side of an arm under the sky.
I know I want to hold on.

The letters left on the lawn.
The shadows crawling the wall.
The mirror shatters and falls.

I've been lost for so long, no more will to carry on.
So dark and dead in the seas.
Nothing left in the end.
And to pray is to pretend.
I'm tired of trying to believe.

So can we learn to forget.
I wanna hold you again.
Can we love remember our love.

I can get so low.
Seems like there's no up and I'm all alone
So take me in your arms knowing I'm the one.

Take my hand let me see you rise again
I know you said we don't have a chance to be saved
We're lost, we're torn, we praise,
We scorn, we're stuck, and we'll stay
The same

Oh you are not the one to blame
The past, the pain, all that it had once became.
Too much to hold, too dark, too cold.
You lost your way that's all

Living without you, living without love
Is it the life I need?

No more tomorrow, no morning sorrow
Now it's all up to me

I feel the rain as you turn my way
You say "It's not a waste"
Living without you, living without love, is it the life I need?
No more tomorrow, no morning sorrow, now it's all up to me.

All I want is you to come undress me
Laying sideways underneath the windowsill
Let's not say a thing, no, let's not even think
Just hold each other here

I remember when we met on Halloween
You and your red dress, your green eyes stared at me
The sidewalk yellow stars start t0 fade into the dark
When I first take you in my arms

I never want to let go
All my life I've been alone
No one there just to hold

There's lines along my face
From those endless wasted days
Showing the sun shines through the shade

I never want to let go
All my life I've been alone
No one there to just hold

Too many faces that turned away
Start to believe that it's not worth the pain
But I know that I love you

Oh, all it was is a dream
Oh, know you're here with me