Don't Look Down

Got into my car
Wondered just how far I’d go
Watched you close the door
Knowing that you would not be mine any more
And I cannot believe feelings can suddenly stop on cue
And I cannot believe I should have to drive away from you
You cannot believe any of this is the right thing to do
You should not believe I would ever want to find someone new
But if I ever had to they would have to have
Your laugh, and your smile, and your eyes when they’ve been closed for a while
And your hands, and your smell, and the joy on your face when you’re giving me hell
And those curls, so much hair, and the soft hugs you give and those sweatshirts you wear
And your lips, and this list
I know that it’s long, but there’s something I missed
And that’s my heart
When it sees that you’re gone
I try to tell it to move on, but it just keeps beating
Sometimes late at night, I put up a fight to cry
Shout across the sky
??No reply to your reply??
And I cannot believe you would let this fade so fast
I will not believe you’d let us slip into the past
And I cannot believe that I’d let you leave
Losing you can only make me wise
Don’t want to believe that I’d find that warmth in someone else’s eyes
And if I ever had to
They would have to have your teeth and your chin
And your skill at cards cause you always win
And your neck and your cheek
??And the flowers you have and you’re starting to speak??
And your mood, oh so chill
And when we’d watch movies, you couldn’t sit still
And this list could get long
So many good things, but there’s still something wrong
And that’s my heart, when it sees that you’re gone
I try to tell it to move on, but it just keeps beating for you