Goodbye Temecula

i locked my doors and waited for the world to end
i watched the clock tick down, by candlelight all safe and sound alone
until i thought that it was safe outside again
but all my plans were laid to waste, it was just another new years after all
the birds were singing in the air
and i was crying on my knees
it was selfish to want everybody else to die
but i know we were meant to be

i know you said that you would never talk to me again
but i thought that this could work
because you told me that you'd never take me back
unless i were the last asshole on earth

sometimes i think if only i were old again
if only i recalled all things we knew when we knew everything
you're out tonight, and i'm at home alone again
you needed time apart but watching you fuck half the town just breaks my heart
sitting in my room constructing atom bombs
'cause there's nothing i can do
i don't really care if i kill off mankind
if that means i can be with you

it hits me
frequently
like lights
at makeout parties
slow burning
inside out
jack o lantern
smashed and thrown out
maybe i
ask for it
like lightning
rods in torrents
maybe you'll
forget this
just like homeless
after christmas

still burning
now quiet
like buildings
after riots
throw me and
forget me
just like flowers
after weddings
just use me
then leave me
for the next
just like good parking
apologize
for all this
just like sober
alcoholics

and if you ever see me falling
i'll be the hammer
you'll be the nail
and if you ever see me falling
you'll be the sidewalk
i'll be the hail

now watch me melt away

sixteen years with you
nothing i'd rather do
than see your ashes hit the ground
put me inside a box
and hope i never find the lock
we're both amazed i'm still around

convince them all that it's their fate
convince them all that it's too late
convince them they're not special
isn't that just fucking great

goodbye temecula
i hope you burn while i'm away
you left me dirty someplace i can't even see
and that will never wash away

a tradition of hate
i guess i'm just too late
i'll watch it happen once again
your fortress cannot last
one day i'll find a match
and i'll ignite that flame again

drain me of everything you can
drain me then laugh as i can't stand
drain me then burn in hell
as soon as i find that gas can

sick of this one horse town
we'll burn it to the ground
children with torches march around
and i can almost hear the sound

goodbye temecula

i'd like to say i suffer from a broken heart
somebody ripped it all apart
truth is i never used it from the start
it's hard to find love when i'm living in my room
with nothing but fugazi tunes
and all these magazine clippings of you

last time i said it was the last time
last year i said it was the last year
feeling sorry for myself without a valentine
except for all your movies and this case of beer

i'm sorry that
nobody can
complete me like you
rachel leigh i know
she's all that and now
i'm lonely you're my
pussycat come home
sweet josie