Rotting Pinata

now and forever
the moment is gone and
time runs out
then it hits you with the
pain
things are great on the
way up
but nobody is with you
when you re on the way
down
you got what you wished
for
is that what you really
wanted
it's how i think of you
raining in my house

indecision
problems that took years
to build and build
and admission is to far
away
life in a blackout
is like life in a storm
when you finally come out
you see that you're all
alone
you got what you wished
for
is that what you really
wanted

the day you break is the
day you're born
then you deal with the
blame
is that what you wished
for
is that what you really
wanted

get on the rodeo that is
your life
beat on me
spill my insides out on
the ground
cut on me
i will go when i say die
i will rot away
like a rotting piñata

see my soul
it cuts a hole in the sky
standing near
watch the birds eat out my
eyes
it will rot away
like a rotting piñata

here lies this junk of me
here lies this wreck that
was me
oh god help me rot
i don't look quite the
same
grab my beating heart
tear it from this broken
cage today

i'm rotting
i'm coloring
i'm red and black
i'm twice my size
don't cry for me
just pull the plug
and let me fly

i will rot away
like a rotting piñata

to begin but not complete
to sleep but not to wake
to always be lost and
never find the way
no thoughts or memory
no hope or tragedy

a mirror waits for a
reflection of a face
to hit the ground and know
the s0und
trial by mistake
deaths a crown we wear
around
like a smile on a face

they will never hate or
lie
they will never break or
try
they will never break or
cry
they will never wave
goodbye

a silence that would not
break
the loss of a face
the face of a woman that
arrived much to late
i break down and she sees
the clowns
i used to hide away
death to clowns all their
crowns
and the smiles on their
face

they wlll never break or
try
they will never hate or
lie
they will never say or
smile
they will never break or
cry

neenah menasha will wait
neenah menasha. neenah
menasha
will wait

i break down and she sees
the clowns
i used to hide away
death to clowns and all
their crowns
and the smiles on their
face
they will never hate or
lie
they will never break or
try
they will never break or
cry
they will never wave
goodbye

will i wake up
is it a dream i made up
no i guess it's reality
what will change us
or will we mess up
our only chance to connect
with a dream

say a prayer for me
i'm buried by the sound
in a world of human
wreckage
i'm lost and i'm found
and i can't touch the
ground
i'm plowed into the sound

to see wide open
with a head that's broken
hang a life on a tragedy
plow me under the ground
that covers the message
that is the seed

do you think she'll notice
that i'm a wreck again
do you think she noticed
that i've lost a new pair
of boots
do you think she'll notice
how i felt in bed again

i guess it's nothing new
`cause nobody's listening
it's like giants falling
down

do you think i noticed
that she came in late
again
do you think i noticed
she's wearing a new
perfume
do you think i noticed
how she wore her hair
today

she said it's nothing new
`cause nobody's listening
it's like giants falling
down