Smile Empty Soul

By now
I should have been somwhere
Or gone to school, or fixed my hair
Back down
Tell it to someone else
Who gives a shit and needs your help

Cuz I found
What I needed
And I don't need you to tell me how you feel
And if I fall
You are not the one that has to cope and deal

All my problems are for me

My god
Look at his tattoos and those earrings
He could never get
A good job
Go home and beat your kids
So they don't turn out as bad as me

Cuz I found
What I needed
And I don't need you to tell me how you feel
And if I fall
You are not the one that has to cope and deal

All my problems are for me
I don't need your eyes to see
I will be what I will be

Stop coming around cause you bother me
Stupid mutherfucker pull your head out your ass and see
What don't you get, was I stuttering
I don't need to take your shit get away from me

I don't have time for your solutions
And I don't wanna deal with your mistakes
No matter how much medication
The doctor says i need to take
I still say -

You're the ones that kill your babies
You're the ones that fuck your kids
You're the ones that throw each other away
You're the ones sitting in church every sunday

And I don't want your religions
And I don't need your sympathies
And I don't want a part of all your hatred
No matter how much you yell at me
I still say

Run to me
I can't live without you
I've walked up walls, over them all
So don't think you're such a queen

You're mine in a sick way
You're my radio in a hole, covered up
You're all the love that could be
But never was

Care for me
Like I need you
You're in my mind, it's only time
Before the drug you feed me ends it all

You're mine in a sick way
You're my radio in a hole, covered up
You're all the love that could be
But never was

It's OK to be what you are
Don't pretend to smile
It's OK to be what you are
Don't pretend to smile

Silhouettes above the cradle hold me down
They won't let me go the wrong way
My mother taught me all the fables, told me how
In the end all the sinners have to pay
But -

I don't wanna live like my mother
I don't wanna let fear rule my life
And I don't wanna live like my father
I don't wanna give up before I die

He worked so hard his bones are breaking
He wore them down but long ago he lost the feeling
His good intentions leave me shaking, show me how
I don't ever want to end up like he did
And -

I don't wanna live like my mother
I don't wanna let fear rule my life
And I don't wanna live like my father
I don't wanna give up before I die

When I have kids
I won't put any chains on their wrists, I won't
I'll tell them this
There's nothing in this world
That you can't be if you want it enough

I waited for you
I died inside my own head
And I'd die again for you

I'm faded and tired
Completely uninspired
And I'd die again for you

So kill me with the love that you won't give to me
And pack the wound with salt I want to feel it bleed

I'm searching for reasons
To keep away the demons
And I'd die again for you
I wish you were near me
Could feel it when you hear me say
I'd die again for you

So kill me with the love that you won't give to me
And pack the wound with salt I want to feel it bleed
You wanted me to crawl so now I'm on my knees

Why's it always have to be me
That's always left out to burn and
I'll never learn

I walk into the room
You don't have to scream I can hear you
Bad trip, the needle sticks
You get your kicks from confrontation
I try to make it past
I don't wanna get into it right now
Can't this family have one day
To get away from all the pain

And through the night I see the light
Shining from the neighbor's windows
I dream of life where I'm safe
In a home where I am not alone
Some day I will lay me down
On the grass where everything is greener
It always seems so good on the other side

I'm sick of all the heat
You can taste the hate in the air
Running through this family, uncomfortably
It's burning me
Is anybody there
In your eyes there's nothing to see
Just because your dreams have died
Don't drag me down, I've still got mine

And through the night I see the light
Shining from the neighbor's windows
I dream of life where I'm safe
In a home where I am not alone
Some day I will lay me down
On the grass where everything is greener
It always seems so good on the other side

Neighbor boy runs up to me, his eyes all black and blue
I say what happened to you boy, he said my daddy flew
Off the hook cuz I was playin too loud
I guess he couldn't hear the TV
He said son I'm-a teach you a lesson
And then he -
And then he -

Maybe it's not so good on the other side
Maybe it's not so good on the other side
But it always seems so good, on the other side
It always looks so good
It always seems so good

I've been scared and lonely
I've asked myself
Is something wrong with you
My girlfriend told me
I need some time alone to deal with issues

But something makes me carry on
It's difficult to understand
Why I always wanna fly

I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle

You always call me
And ask me how I make it through the day
I'm always fallin'
I guess it's just God's way of
Makin' me pay

But something makes me carry on
It's difficult to understand
Why I always wanna fly

I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle

I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle

When I-
I wonder why I try
And I -
Wonder why I bother
And I -
I wonder why I cry
Why I -
I go through all this trouble

I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle

I do it for the drugs
I do it just to feel alive
I do it for the love
That I get from the bottom
Of a bottle